Nozomi doesn't want to be crying, either. But once the first tears spill out there's no stopping them, no matter how incessantly she wipes at her eyes.

She doesn't want to be like this. She hates being this selfish. And though Eli undoubtedly wouldn't be holding her right now if she understood the full extent of how she felt, Nozomi sinks into her hold all the same.

"I am thinking about it," she answers the question Eli never really asked, voice small and choked between sniffs. "All the time."